Today my mental health and motivation took a major decline. I attended an event earlier today too and I was up in spirits at the start, but during I fell into my shell. I was hoping doing some photography would help and while it did sometimes, I just sank into a hole. I don’t like this…

Does not sound great honestly. I am just thankful non-carbonated versions of Monster exist since I gave up carbonation heh.

Lucky, I could use a hot tub session.

Sometimes I make decisions and not sure if they are the correct ones. I have so many insecurities with myself…

Been doing some thinking lately and I may be dropping out of some Telegram channels and Discords including the MNFurs one. Been going through some identity-related issues and I have mentally not been great and not sure where my furry family should be.

I have done that before when I have needed it.

Nerd

You have plenty of friends.

I am hitting a wall with some hard depression. Apologies ahead of time, but you may see a series of downer posts from me to get shit out of my head.

Doing buzzed photo editing is a feeling I do not know if I like.

Honestly one of the reasons why I like to volunteer. Find something I am good at or learn to be good and feel worth while and give back using my skillsets.

These feels honestly hit me hard after FM and have been entering my mind on and off ever since.

I am doing a mental battle with myself on ever dating again. After 3 relationships that ended in breakups, I honestly just consider myself cursed and worth no one’s time. I end up comparing myself to the rest of the people in this world who have no one and consider that my main path now.