Yeah, it's just... self doubts, paranoia and a shot to my self esteem I've been dealing with for a little while finally reaching a fever pitch.

Oh it definitely wasn't Jackbox with the tryhard stuff in particular, just it reached a point where I feel genuinely bad if I perform well.

The stuff I do in Minecraft is dig for resources and try to help people. Then you have shit like Jackbox where I become an active target for people to avoid voting for just so I don't win, eliminating any point in participating. Do I even mention CrossWorlds?

Maybe I should just return to isolation and stay in my place. I can't do anything without feeling like I've made a mistake somehow. I can't even be semi-competent at a video game without being labelled a tryhard.

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Between scribing meticulous prompts to train a model of artificial intelligence in order to automate and accelerate the development process of a video game for the sole factor of getting it out swiftly And having a personality and some semblance of artistic integrity I know what I'm picking.

So. Guess who's been on their Minecraft arc. To the point they made a skin of their character. This guyyyyy.

I love it so much hhhhh ;; ♡

Let me give it a try. You're such an amazing person. You wake up, get out of bed and do the best you can. Be the best person you can be. Making those you care about smile with your presence. The world needs more people like you.

I realise I haven't drawn in some time. Or at least, I haven't made a proper start on anything in some time. I honestly don't know why my drive has been so awful. What in the world is wrong with me? I feel like I'm retreating back into my shell.

Call to arms, another talented artist needs help. Even spreading the word could do wonders.