I apologize for the art delays Cali is going through an unprecedented Oct heatwave and our apartment AC died on Sunday It has continously been over 90-100 degrees in my home for 4 days straight and trying to run my workstation trips the power we have thats needed for fans

Deleted that vent post about the poll stuff Heads been all over lately, gonna try and turn it more positive

The funny thing about polls is there are multiple options When I made that poll I was having a bad day and forgot I had made it, then later realized I had and thought about taking it down but at that point no one had picked it so I shrugged and slept Then woke up suddenly quite a few people had

Crazy enough, sometimes after over a decade of drawing this stuff I'd like the chance to discuss or draw other things Genuinely was gonna pay it no heed til I saw how many folks voted that option and remembered all my friends who packed up over the years from similar feelings Sorry for being human

Which Song OC do you want to see get some love this Halloween season? Feel free to also suggest an idea or kink to go with them

Missed the deadline for finishing a summer piece featuring Tay Had it ready to ink and color but took too long So now if I upload it the premise and idea falls flat Great, guess I can sit on it til June?

Ey, appreciated so much!

Yes exactly! Thats what I'm talking about! It's bullshit!

Like do I even want to go through with changing myself?? Or is that my brain coping after years of rejection and hatred for something that was never my choice and just existing as who I was born as was seen as something to be hated by all the artists I looked up to

Yeah folks are better about it now, but in the 2000's-2010's the absolute worst shit was said about you if ever once drew a male character in kink Not even big! Just a male character being present would cause utter disgust And only the most fem guys were allowed to be drawn

Seriously considering therapy at this point But what do I even tell a therapist? That being entangled with a community of people who draw fatasses and balloons for over half of my life contributed to hating being born a man? Nearly all my self doubts on my gender came from this community

Nothing like being told for over half of my life by artist friends and peers that my body type disgusts them And the only way it doesn't disgust them is when it starts learning away from masc Yeah I'm sure that hasn't caused years of psychological damage to me

Love drawing kink But holy shit did it destroy my self image over the years When you spend years seeing folks drawing larger gals with glee, then recoil in disgust at larger guys in art It fucks with your self esteem as someone who's been on the larger side nearly all my life

Comms are delayed briefly, I promise I'll work on them more soon I know ive been delayed with them, and I know that feeling of being upset when comms take a while I'm so sorry I'm letting you all down right now Please give me time to make it right

I love the way the berrying shaped out through the sequence Really fun way to depict it!

Give me a random kink scenario The ones I find interesting I may use as a concept to work with for some Song OC pieces

Trendddd

After taking a breather for my bday, work on paid art doodles has resumed