thanks so much!!! i was worried that this one wouldn't turn out well 😭 im actually quite surprised, and happy w/ how it came out!!

but theres times where a sliver of glass gets shot straight through my heart and it cripples me. because im aggressively reminded of the things that i HAVENT healed from yet. and i have old wounds that are bleeding again. i crave catharsis i'll never get. and never getting the closure is what hurts

ive healed a lot. truly i have. i have amazing friends who stayed by me. got me through it. and supported me with their whole selves. most times i dont think about it, because i've learned to restructure my life. move along, and keep living. i've forged bonds so much stronger through my hurt in this

i wish i new earlier that the sweet water i was drinking was poisoned. it would've made things easier. now i get to sit here while my organs fail one by one.

you were too good to be true i guess. i was blinded to a lot of things because my love and adoration shoved a pair of rose tinted glasses onto my face and i couldnt see enough to take them off.

i cant even be comforted in the way i want anymore go d fuckign DAMN IT

i hope this hurts you if you see it. you wonder how im doing? this is how im doing. fuck you. for leaving without another word. for ripping my heart out and not even having the courtesy to spit on it first. im better without you, probably. but the effect you had on me lingers. and im pissed about it

this gtober has been a nightmare for me because i dont have you to bounce off of. i dont have your oc's who i loved. i had a perfect idea for todays and i cant use it because youre NOT HERE. im pissed. you were my muse. my drive. my artistic world. and its my fault for letting it ever get that bad

im mad because im seeking catharsis that im never going to fucking get. i can scream to his shadow all i want but it's never going to give me satisfaction bc it's not his face. im so tired of not being over him. i hate that he still has a piece of my heart. 5 years of friendship for fucking nothing.

it's always SOOOO nice to feel like you're back in shape after a haircut i need to get my sides mowed back down, they're so long 😭 i feel like a shaggy dog

oh that's so gross, im sorry donny :((( could i also pester you for the blog name? i still use Tumblr and want to block that account 😭

they're so funny lmfAOOOOO, i love the comical nature of something so small being SO dramatic. you are not even two apples tall there is no need for THAT much drama muse is definitely of intermittent size, but regardless of their scale they WILL be a nuisance