Saturday, 26th September 2026
6pm
𝘚𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘸𝘦 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱 𝘸𝘳𝘪𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨? Doesn't it worry people when we poets think about that? What’s the matter with them if it doesn't? Are they even still here?

Saturday, 26th September 2026
6pm
𝘚𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘸𝘦 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱 𝘸𝘳𝘪𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨? Doesn't it worry people when we poets think about that? What’s the matter with them if it doesn't? Are they even still here?
Wed, 16th Sep 2026
7:15am
Having seen my son's psychiatrist,
we walk home with Hegel and Kant,
the fullness of a rambler rose.
Swallows, blue tits, crows. Autumn has come. I'm sitting on the balcony. C418's songs. I take b/w pictures of the mad clouds with my analog camera.
I wanted to try my hand at being a bookseller (but there were no apprenticeship places), and then you suggested goldsmithing (same), and then you suggested becoming an optician, and I had no strength left to search any longer.
I just wanted the fog to clear.
3/3
Everything kept falling. I didn't dare to go to university.
How heavy my heart had been—
and there the clouds hang,
hesitant, steel-grey . . .
2/3
Monday, 14th September 2026
1:31pm
"You always wanted to become a goldsmith—". No, Mama. I didn't. I wanted to study literature or arts, but these were no safe options in your eyes. I couldn't think, my last year at school. I was falling apart. Summer, then autumn.
1/3
Sunday, 13th September 2026
8:41pm
If what we perceive is determined by the imperfect tool we use, that is the brain... shouldn't we be more graceful, more humble? Shouldn't we?
in the tiny garden
two brown birds
and a cat
Friday, 11th September 2026
08:23am
Cool air from the garden.
I'm worried about AI. I'm thinking about getting rid of anything that needs data centres. I think I'll make apple crumble today.
Thursday, 10th September 2026
8:30am
the audiobook
ends with
my aching heart
Mon, 7th Sep 2026
5:46pm
The lamp at the dentist's looks like eyes in rainbow colours. It reminds me: I wanted to knit some helix socks. And a far-right party has won a large number of votes in Saxony-Anhalt.
My son's
b/w film photo of
the local church—
looking old,
and new.
Monday, 7th September 2026
6:26am
(Talked with a friend about that. )
It is elitist to believe that writing haiku is superior to writing senryū or tanka. They are simply different forms of expression and creativity. All are valid. All are beautiful.
Saturday, 5th September, 2026
9:07pm
Hungarian goulash. Just the right amount of hot paprika powder.
I'm just happy
we have dinner
together
Thursday, 3rd September, 2026
9:32am
Yesterday, your sweet letter was in the post,
a butterfly charm fell out—
but I, I feel nothing, and then—
contempt