Please just let me crawl into a hole and cry all day. #gay #musclegay #musclepanda #gayswholift #gayswithink

I can’t remember how much weight this was. Who cares. These aren’t getting attention anymore. #gay #musclegay #musclepanda #lgbt #gayswholift #gayswithink

Single, again. I mean, we weren’t official or anything, but it’s the end of that era. It was mutual, but I’m still sad. #gay #musclegay #musclepanda #gayswithink

This is now the only chart I know. I’m kind of ok with that. #gay #musclegay #musclepanda #gayswithink

Here I am in my childhood bedroom. I wish little me knew I would grow up ok. #gay #musclegay #musclepanda #gayswithink

Life is a slog. The last fifteen years have been such a meager existence from dating failures and no one to share my life and genuine connection with. I hope he saves me from myself. #gay #musclegay #musclepanda #gayswithink

Same douche bag, different day. #gay #gymbro #gaymuscle #musclepanda #gayswithink

Oops I forgot to post something this morning. #gay #musclegay #musclepanda #gayswithink

A friend gave me shit for not eating pizza anymore because “I can’t see my abs anymore.” I literally said that. I have a problem.

He retorted with “shut up and eat the pizza. I prefer you without.” Body dysmorphia, my dudes. #gay #gaymuscle #musclepanda #gayswithink

I felt cute. And the tsa agent asked if I was a bodybuilder! That was some nice validation. #gay #musclegay #musclepanda #gayswithink

Holy fuck balls I met the bearlebrity Johnny McGovern. #gay #musclepanda

Save me from myself. #gay #musclegay #musclepanda #gayswithink

Someone teach me how to pose. #gay #musclepanda #musclegay #gayswithink #gaysian

I’m a sweaty dude. #gay #musclegay #musclepanda

The struggle is real. #gay #musclegay #musclepanda #gayswithink

We’re going with without, right? #gay #musclegay #musclepanda #gayswithink

Lookin’ #thicc, feelin’ thicc. #gay #musclepanda #musclegay

He posted this to his stories as I made him dinner. All his friends went “whoa he’s buff.” Validation, acquired.

#gay #gaymuscle #musclepanda #gayswithink

Portrait mode makes me feel pretty. #outfitoftheday #gay #musclegay #musclepanda

Also, I’m really sorry for my meltdown yesterday. It’s not my intent to show my vulnerability. Or maybe it is. He told me the places he wants to take me, and all the memories and experiences he wants to create. I *am* not only adequate, but I am unapologetically unique. #gay #musclepanda