Cancelling stream tonight. I'm wiped out from work and fixing home appliances so I'm gonna take tonight to relax and work on some personal projects. I'll see you all Tuesday for more Deltarune.

I've rarely drawn Asul with her sword but it's so fun to. Not sure how I feel about the posing but it was fun to experiment given I'm so out of practice.

I think this video has been an eye opening experience. I think that social media is moving in a direction that I need to step away from. I need to find more offline things to do, and whatever I do online boils down to slop that everyone else is doing. Like streaming.

Modern YT is built in a way that discourages creativity and community. I grew up with this platform. I love it. It hurts to make something that checks off all the boxes the platform expects, only to be told "it's evergreen! Either accept that no one will watch or make slop". Maybe I will make slop.

The bot also confirmed that YouTube did not push my video as much as it could have. At this point I don't know what I should do with myself creatively. I love video editing, but it feels like YouTube lost the "You" part a long time ago. I just wanna make what I want and feel fulfilled.

Basically the response I got was "this video is evergreen. No one wants to watch a video essay on EarthBound. Have you considered making ragebait or drama content?" Like, I know that already. But I've been making videos with the mindset that as long as it's well made, it will succeed. I was wrong.

I was so desperate to find out why this video bombed because my analytics showed positive results. It has high watch times, and was a 1/10 on launch. So why did it fail in the algorithm? Well, I gave in and asked the only option a miniscule channel like me has... I used YT's awful AI bot...

So I've been feeling a little lost after this video's release. This was a passion project that took over 2 months of work, and I was confident in it's ability to perform better than it did. I wasn't expecting millions or even thousands of views. But I was expecting better than it did.

Nevermind we fixed it. Going live soon.

So Retroarch completely borked my entire setup and I had to restart my PC. I'm going to do some backend testing and updates and if I can get things working, I might either start with LEGO Indiana Jones next work or even tomorrow if I'm in the mood.

Rendering has begun. The video itself is complete. I'm still aiming for an October release as I'll be working on peer reviews and thumbnail artwork before I hit publish.