I'm so SO sorry to everybody who wanted to talk these past few weeks. I really want to reply to everybody, but I just... don't want everybody to be dealing with me at my lowest. I'm beat. I have no social battery. I see no light. Y'all deserve better I love y'all <3

Sorry this is how you find out I'm still alive instead of a witty pun about macros of whatever My mental health has not been doing too good for a while now, and this for sure does not fucking help. Putting on a mask every day, and pretending to be fine for capitalism. It takes everything I've got

I'm so thankful for at least one colleague who seems to have my back. And I'm very confident I can survive a long time in between jobs if push comes to shove. Just really REALLY don't want to fucking deal with the job market right now. And don't want to leave the people I worked with for 4 years now

CW: Vent Ah yeah, that's what I fucking needed. More fucking stress. Ive been barely pushing through every work day this week and now this bullshit I'm having a very hard time calming myself down. Like holy fuck my heart has not gone below 100 BPM for five hours. I can't fucking eat. I'm exhausted

You want to be snugged by a large immortal deity, that could use your whole planet as a cock ring if they wanted to, don't you? >:3c