⟡ Lem ⟡ Working ✍️ (@elarisastra.bsky.social)

@bunbuncita.bsky.social Oct 16, 2026, 2:11 AMReposted by @elarisastra.bsky.social

thank you, and thank you for reading such a long text too
ko-fi.com/bunbuncita

things have been quite depressing these past two months; my (already) disabled (ms patient for over 20 years) diabetic mom got a cancer diagnosis and getting there between exams and doctors depleted my and my family savings.

both her and my dad have been traveling 4 hours to the clinic they forced her to get her treatment on, once they get to this city i have to pick them up, pay for their transport, their food, get their booking going, go up and downstairs doing registrations and paperwork that never ends, hold her hand so she can even sit to get checked.

i started being her caregiver before i was even 8 years old and going back to this role, but with a new and maybe even more terrifying illness, has been mentally and physically exhausting to a point that has left me crying daily. i have no energy left, i cant focus on my own chores so i dont forget any of hers.

i would really appreciate your help even tho its painful to ask for it, knowing that having the money to cover some of the expenses would at least remove one thing to worry about, thank you so much

@elarisastra.bsky.social Oct 15, 2026, 11:21 PM

Birthday commission of mama and baby for the sweet @ilikemen.heliosphe.re 🥺💜

#LeCommiss

@elarisastra.bsky.social Oct 15, 2026, 11:02 PM

I used to be really ashamed of it because of all the online discussion making me feel "no real artist works like this" but now that I'm finally over it I want to help more people too!! 💜💜💜

@elarisastra.bsky.social Oct 10, 2026, 6:05 PMReposted by @elarisastra.bsky.social

Finally got to record my work process from 0!!! Now you can see me struggle even more from the really basic sketch ASLKDNAS commission for @/wilderbb.bsky.social

@elarisastra.bsky.social Oct 15, 2026, 10:47 PM

Another timelapse vid to show my work process as an artist with aphantasia using refs!! :D

@elarisastra.bsky.social Oct 15, 2026, 7:17 PM

Ref i used is from my absolute goat TrueRef!!!!

@elarisastra.bsky.social Oct 15, 2026, 7:15 PM

warm up of the day is #Elwiwi but idk how to draw flowers ASDJASv

@elarisastra.bsky.social Oct 15, 2026, 3:37 AM

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@elarisastra.bsky.social Oct 15, 2026, 2:39 AM

starting strong as always

@elarisastra.bsky.social Oct 15, 2026, 2:31 AM

yeah

@elarisastra.bsky.social Oct 15, 2026, 2:21 AM

its communal masturbation time 🔥🔥🔥

@elarisastra.bsky.social Oct 15, 2026, 1:33 AM

the other part of me is yelling at myself being like, "you could use that money for something actually useful and get a graphics card for your pc"..... but them im again like "i actually dont need to spend THAT much rn everything works fine so-" RAAAAAAAA

@elarisastra.bsky.social Oct 15, 2026, 1:30 AM

................im already up to my neck with work and so stressed........ but what if.... 2-3 slots...... to get tickets for a concert I really really wanna go to.............. maybe being able to see xl0v irl will cure my burnout.............................