Я тут только одно имя упомяну. Невилл.

Он запугал мальчика до, сука, боггарта, при этом никто из Логботтомов ему вообще ничего не сделал. Это был тупо буллинг, потому что он мог.

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Вообще, наверное, новый топ в моих кулстори не перебить будет ничем:

Я чуть не покончила с собой в День предотвращения суицидов, не зная, что такой вообще есть.

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Увидела срач за секс, охуела очень сильно. Девочки, милые, у людей организмы по-разному работают. Для кого-то секс необходим, для кто-то глубоко непонятен. Но первых это не делает животными, а вторых инопланетянами.

И пссст. Асексуалы с высоким либидо тоже существуют.

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I am struggling as fuck with what happened yesterday and have no idea how to reach people to ask for support I need.

And I guess I need to vent to a total stranger I'll never have a chance to meet in person.

What a time to be alive while I still don't want to.

#martha_rants, tw: rape

Sometimes real people's sudden tales about their sex life trigger my rape flashbacks.

What bad thing did I do today to smth like that to appear in a general chat of fandom group unrelated to real life sex at all? Why? I was so tired even without all that.

Hi, I'm Martha. Music nerd, linguistics freak, storytelling theory's wife.

Please come yap with me about #Hellaverse, #Husk and #huskerdust
Shitposting and posts in Russian are usially tagged by #martha_rants, mute if needed

Autocorrection fucked up another one of my takes

Do you know a Hazbin song Hell's Greatest Dead? It does

(i'm scared to ask why it interchanges those two words)

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... In front of. Hilarious. Why do I make so many mistakes

Because I haven't consistently written in English since high school, and Russian has much more polysemes, much less verb tenses (only four if we include subjunctive, and that's it) and completely different wordbuilding

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Insomnia is a bitch

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I guess today was the day when I truly lived through just a bit of my grief of losing loved one for the first time in my life.

Her name is Irina, she passed away 5 years ago, she was one of the two best people I've ever know, I miss her so much, and just her name can still open doors

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Other side of my current journey: I am fucking scared. Every single moment I am scared and wish to wake up from this nightmare.

Well, the hospitalization is scheduled, and I have a lot of planning (specifically work tasks handover) before I leave home for month or more.

And I started fundraising like 4 hours ago and it is already exhausting and giving me faith in people equally

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So, a funeral would be way cheaper than hospitalization.

One of my friends told me I'd better go get different treatments in different places provided by federal insurance, that can be free.

I want to go out the balcony.

Took a nap, regret that deeply. Dreamed again of Kryvyi Rih, where I spent part of my childhood in my grandparents' house, feeling a lot about this, can't talk a lot because of legal reasons.

Shortly: I hate everything, everything sucks.

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No IMOI for me, no rest for the wicked. There are two options, one demands time and resilience I don't have, other — a lot of money and potential career suicide.

The rest will be in Russian, I just can't translate now